BUT before I did, I had a few things in my head that I wanted to put on paper before I headed out.
I had one mission this summer: See and say goodbye to everyone from middle school and high school that have meant the most to me. It was tough to cram it all into a month and a half, and sometimes, it came down to luck running into some people coincidentally, but I did it. I’ve said all of my goodbyes and I can now move forward.
I kind of came to a realization while I was on Facebook at the start of summer. I was looking through my list of friends and kind of thought to myself, “Man, I have literally not seen or talked to you in 6 or 7 years.” And for others it was like, “I don’t think I’ve ever even officially met you in person…at all. I just accepted your random friend request.” And as I thought ahead to the end of summer and college, I thought to myself, “No way, not this time. I am going to see this person one last time. I am not going to let this person fade into the crowd of friends that I only see through social media and have no real recollection of 5 or 10 years from now.” And that’s what I’ve dedicated this summer to, saying goodbye. It was hard enough keeping in touch with people from middle school when we went to different high schools, even if they were local, but now that college has started and many of my friends are soon to be scattered all throughout the U.S., I knew this was my last chance to see some of my friends for a very long time. And I had to seize that chance.
This past week in particular has been tough, having to part with some of my best friends that have always stood by me. But interestingly enough, I learned this week that saying “goodbye” doesn’t have to be painful at all. In fact, most of the time I had to officially part ways with someone, I left with a smile on my face. I realized that yeah, we’re both going our own ways now, but I always end up so excited for the both of us as to where we are going to end up next, and I can’t wait to see that person on the cover of some magazine or become the next governor of California. It’s just exciting knowing someone that you know is going to be really great some day, even if it was just for a year or two, that you once knew that person, and you were once a part of their life. Even if you don’t talk much anymore, you were still once a part of their world. And that thought makes me happy, knowing I was a huge part of their life, just as they were a part of mine as some point. And even if we don’t see each other years from now, I always have one last memory to remember them by. And that’s what this past week, and this whole summer was. A time to say goodbye.
So… if I have seen you this past week, or at all this summer, then you know how much you mean to me, so much so that I just had to see you one last time. I won’t be too far, but college is such a different world altogether. So whether you’re leaving to go back East or are going to be 30 minutes away somewhere in the South Bay, I just gotta say thank you, for helping me get here. Thanks for your friendship and your presence in my life, because it truly means a lot.
And even if I haven’t seen you, I still wanna say thanks. Because, whether we still keep in contact or not, you were once a part of my life, and any contact I’ve had from anyone, going all the way back to elementary school, has shaped me and influenced me in some shape or form. So thank you. Best of luck to you and maybe, in 5 or 10 years from now, we’ll cross paths again. Until then, best of luck.
me: beyoncé - ***flawless (remix) [feat. nicki minaj]
you: ariana grande - problem (feat. iggy azalea)
OH MY GOD I HAVE FOUND THE GIF OF MY LIFE
i know i give white people a lot of shit but u guys are really nice. like when the light turns green and there’s a white pedestrian that’s almost across the street u guys always do that jog thing. i know it’s kind of insignificant but i appreciate it white people. u and ur half jog thing.
I LAUGHED AT THIS MUCH MORE THAN I SHOULD HAVE
I am so fucking happy this is back in my life once again