I don’t usually post sappy, emotional things on tumblr anymore. Hell, I hardly post at all. But now that this year is over and 2014 is right around the corner, I have been feeling a weird mix of grief and nostalgia for the longest time. It might have been because I’ve been woefully sick the past week and I’ve had way too much time to myself to think, but I can’t seem to shake this feeling.
I know how excited everyone is about 2014. I hear it left and right, on tumblr, facebook, twitter. I even heard one of my neighbors blabbing on about this “new” person she is going to be to one of her friends on the phone through my bedroom window. Granted, I’m excited too. I am a senior, and this will be my graduating year. I have a lot to be excited about. But 2013 was such a life-changing year for me, I can’t help but let it go.
The experiences I’ve shared, the new opportunities I’ve been blessed with, and most importantly, the people I have met are all things I will carry with me for the rest of my life. And soon, that’s all they are going to be. Just memories. I suppose that’s why I feel so sad right now. I can’t help but let go.
2013 taught me about what it’s truly like to be independent. To be able to go out and explore places I wasn’t even sure existed. To be pushed out of your comfort zone and do something that no one would ever expect. 2013 taught me about the value of friendship. That it’s okay to trust others again. That it’s okay to let yourself go and just have a crazy, stupid time with the people you love, even if it means looking like a complete idiot. 2013 taught me that there is a world out there to explore, but the extent of it is completely up to your own imagination.
Without wanting to sound too dramatic, I can honestly say that this year has changed my life, and if I could live it all over again, I would do it in a heartbeat. But I know that’s not the healthy thing to do. When it’s time to move on, you have to move on. And I guess that’s what I keep telling myself. In 6 short months, I will be stepping onto a big stage with a maroon cap and gown, waving proudly at my parents from the stands, and receiving the high school diploma that I have worked 17 long years for. In 7 months, I will be leaving for college. Where? I don’t know yet. Not even a clue. But no matter where I end up, I know that the time will come for me to pack up my things, load all of my personal possessions into crammed boxes into my car, and have to wave goodbye to my parents as I slowly back out of the driveway. I’ll have to say goodbye to some of my best friends.It won’t be goodbye forever, I will still see them often from time to time, but things will never be the same. When all this comes, there is no doubt, I’ll be feeling the same way then as I am now. Nostalgia. But when that time comes, just like right now, I’m gonna have to keep going. Life doesn’t stop for you. It’s up to you to keep up with it.
As much as I am excited for 2014, I can’t help but look back on 2013 with a huge smile on my face. Every second has been a roller coaster, and the memories I’ve shared have been priceless. But now, they’re all memories. And it’s time for me to move on and go make new ones.
What I’m thankful for: every Thanksgiving, I always say the same old thing. “I’m grateful for friends, family, food, etc…” so much so, that the words have actually lost its meaning recently. But this holiday season, I have never meant it more than I have now. I can truly say I am grateful for the amazing people I have gotten the opportunity to meet this year. The adventures, the journeys, all of the amazing experiences, are all things I’ll take with me for the rest of my life. And I have so many people to thank that for. Happy Thanksgiving everyone. Stay safe and have fun out there. ☺ 🍂🍃🍁 #simpoclock
oh fuck no.
HELL TO THE NAW MOTHAFUCKAZ
Ahaha that looks so cool, I’d be like WAIT COME BACK!!
fuck that son i’d be out
This is actually really funny if you think about it. I mean, there was totally some sort of ghost or demon about to kill her but then that sheet blew straight into its face and it was so embarrassed that it decided to disappear.
Tremble, mortal, for I am Zerendikos, and I will drag your howling soul to—
AH SHIT WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS IT’S ALL OVER MY FACE
WHAT IS THAT SMELL
IS THAT FUCKING FEBREEZE
FUCK DAMMIT SHIT FORGET THIS I’M OUT
I won’t take a bullet for anyone because if I have time to jump in front of a bullet, you have time to move.
y’know, you probably just made tons of songs seem completely pointless.
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don’t be friends with seniors because they will graduate and leave you and it’ll suck
DON’T BE FRIENDS WITH UNDERCLASSMEN BECAUSE YOU WILL HAVE TO LEAVE THEM AND IT WILL SUCK
don’t be friends with seniors if you’re a senior because they’ll go to a different college than you and it will suck
dont make friends
glad we sorted that out guys
why is your suitcase full of rocks??
I DONT TELL YOU HOW TO LIVE YOUR LIFE
THE FUTURE IS NOW
i don’t think anyone understands how badly i want this and how much i hate carrying shit